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Why can’t you just do what I’ve always hoped for?

you’ll never do it </3

 

 

 

Closed off from love, I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground, found something true
And everyone’s looking ’round, thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater than the rush
That comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks that I’m going crazy
Maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh, they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

I don’t care what they say, I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding, I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open
And I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love

…

whoa!

eindelijk is het zover, hetgene waar ik al jaren van droom is eindelijk uitgekomen!

MIJN TATTOO!!

het deed verschrikkelijk veeeeel pijn… maar het resultaat mag er zijn! Ze is perfect ze beschrijft perfect mijn levensstijl…

Tergelijkertijd ging er ook iets anders door men hoofd… oude herineringen die zo gevoelig liggen, maar hopelijk kunnen deze hersteld worden door nieuwe gebeurtenissen in het heden!

finaly

Eindelijk, ben je daar terug, mijn oude trouwe vriend.
Ik heb je zo gemist, en na al die dagen, weken, maanden, ben je terug!

Ik heb het gevoel dat we elkaar nog zoveel te vertellen hebben, ik zou uren met je kunnen praten! Ervaringen/belevenissen delen die ik heb meegemaakt, zonder jou… Jammer genoeg zoveel miserie meegemaakt, jou steun zo nodig had, en deze niet kreeg.

Maargoed, ik ben zo blij dat ik je terug heb en hopelijk voor altijd!

<3

Open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won’t waste a minute without you
My bones ache, my skin feels cold
And I’m getting so tired and so old

The anger swells in my guts
And I won’t feel these slices and cuts
I want so much to open your eyes
‘Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you’ll open your eyes

Get up, get out, get away from these liars
‘Cause they don’t get your soul or your fire
Take my hand, knot your fingers through mine
And we’ll walk from this dark room for the last time

Every minute from this minute now
We can do what we like anywhere
I want so much to open your eyes
‘Cause I need you to look into mine

Tell me that you’ll open your eyes

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won’t waste a minute without you

 

<3

You think I’m pretty
Without any make-up on
You think I’m funny
When I tell the puch line wrong
I know you get me
So I’ll let my walls come down, down

Before you met me
I was a wreck
But things were kinda heavy
You brought me to life
Now every February
You’ll be my valentine, valentine

Let’s go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We’ll be young forever

You make me
Feel like
I’m living a Teenage Dream
The way you turn me on
I can’t sleep
Let’s runaway
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

My heart stops
When you look at me
Just one touch
Now baby I believe
This is real
So take a chance
And don’t ever look back
Don’t ever look back

We drove to Cali
And got drunk on the beach
Got a motel and
Built a fort out of sheets
I finally found you
My missing puzzle piece
I’m complete<3

//

Every night I remember that evening
The way you looked when you said you were leaving
The way you cried as you turned to walk away
The cruel words and the false accusations
The mean looks and the same old frustrations
I never thought that we’d throw it all away
But we threw it all away.

And I’m a little bit lost without you
And I’m a bloody big mess inside
And I’m a little bit lost without you
This aint a love song this is goodbye (oooooh)
This aint a love song this is goodbye (ooooh)

I’ve been lost, I’ve been losing
I’ve been tired, I’m all hurt and confusion
I’ve been mad, I’m the kind of man that I’m not
I’m going down, I’ll be coming back fighting
I may be scared and a little bit frightened
But I’ll be back, I’ll be coming back to life
I’ll be coming back to life

And I’m a little bit lost without you
Scouting For Girls This Ain’t A Love Song lyrics found on http://www.hibeamlyrics.com/this-aint-a-love-song-lyrics-scouting-for-girls.html
And I’m a bloody big mess inside
And I’m a little bit lost without you
This aint a love song this is goodbye (oooooh)
This aint a love song this is goodbye (ooooh)

Whoooo
And you can try (you can try)
And you can try but you’ll never keep me down
And you can try (you can try)
And you can try but you’ll never keep me down

La la la la la la la
(I wont be lost, i wont be down)

And I’m a little bit lost without you
And I’m a bloody big mess inside
This ain’t a love song this is goodbye

It’s alright (It’s alright) cause you can try but you’ll never keep me down
It’s alright (It’s alright) I may be lost but you’ll never keep me down
You can try (you can try) you can try but you’ll never keep me down
You cant try (you can try) I know i’m lost but I’m waiting to be found
you’ll never keep me down
you’ll never keep me down
never keep me down

:(

And I don’t know,

this could break my heart or save me.

Nothing’s real,

untill you let go completely.

So here I go with all my thoughts,

that i’ve been saving,

So here I go with all my fears,

weighing so hard on me.

 

 

almost 48 and so many more hours to go…

sigh

I don’t care
I don’t mind
If you’ve gone and found somebody else
well that’s allright
I wish you well
I hope you life
and some way will find the satisfaction that I found

and I don’t need to buy excuses
anymore than you got juices
in my life

I won’t hear you calling
This time I’m walking away
Boy there’s no in between
Now you made your choice
I guess it’s over boy
I’m really gone to stay

 

I’m gonna gain
got a second chance
now I can hold my head up high and spread my broken wings
I can fly
any day or night
’cause I don’t need to be around an emtpy well that’s dry

and I don’t need to buy excuses
anymore than you got juices
in my life

I won’t hear you calling
This time I’m walking away
Boy there’s no in between
Now you made your choice
I guess it’s over boy
I’m really gone to stay

//

Yes you have been there for a year,

but you never gave me space.

Space I needed to breathe..
Space I needed to heal.

Somehow we’ll always be conected, ’cause everytime I laugh,
I will hear YOUR laughter.